Friday, November 30, 2012

Cooking & Baking Season

My favorite spaghetti sauce

During the summer, I must confess, I am not super inspired to cook.  Staying indoors, over a hot stove and near a hot oven, in a hot state, while just plain hot, drains me.

Plus I'm slow, and even with prep, it takes a while.  You can't rush awesome, and if it's made with love, it takes time.

Of course we also have to account for tiny hands, requests, fusses, and messes, 'cause that's how we roll with two tiny boys!

To top that off, who wants to be indoors when we can be playing in the sunshine until dang near bedtime!

Enter the Fall Equinox, and the Winter Solstice that looms ahead.

The slowing down begins.

The winds shift.

The cool Fall breezes come, we're back into the full swing of preparing, and loving hot meals and baked goodness of all kinds.  We're not just scrambling for leftovers and what I have in the freezer, or (gasp) getting something to-go.  Ahem, sometimes a little too often.

We're ready to slither indoors late in the afternoon, after we've soaked up as much radiant sunshine as our sweet faces can absorb.

Our bodies demand warmth, and hearty nourishment, three warm meals a day.  Warm breakfast and dinner are the best when the cool weather slows us down.  It fills our belly, and we relax, and release, and prepare for our slow beginning or nightly mini-hibernation.

Just like my Grandmothers' homes, ours smells like food all day.  I just love the idea of the boys living in a home where we do all the work, and they bare witness to the being a part of the mysteries of our rhythm, and preparing that which nourishes and sustains us.

So far this week, we've cooked up a rich vegetable soup, fresh veggies, put the Thanksgiving Day ham bone to good use with a huge pot of butter beans, and just finished a huge pot of beans and rice.  I'm ready to make another huge batch of spaghetti sauces -one veggie and one meaty.  Most of the pie is gone (wipes tears) so we'll be making sweet something soon.

We love it.

Warm hearty meals are so good for the soul.

What are your favorite hearty wintery meals?

Thursday, November 29, 2012

Sickies


When we're sick or under the weather, our world slows down.

And we stop.

We take care of only the bare necessities, rest, and whatever we have left, play around with.

I was taught how to take care of myself, and my little ones by my loving, caring Mom.

I remember getting scolded when I worked for actually staying at home to rest when I was sick.  Imagine that!  I remember thinking people that came to work sick, when they didn't have to, were a little nuts, and risked getting everyone else sick.  But I listen to my body and my gut, and when we're down, we stop.

I'm not one to push us really.  We know our pace, and the pace of nature, and we honor and respect that.  We're rarely rushed, and hardly over-scheduled.  And we're happy that way.

We can do things according to our calendar, but easily take up an offer that makes us smile even bigger.

Another way to say it is, we play by ear.

Monday we felt a off.  Just not totally there.  We chilled around the house, rested around, and played outside.  Then that night before bed I thought "I wonder if we are getting sick?"

Sure enough, on Tuesday, I woke up to an unhappy, sad and extra tired baby, and a not so spunky boy.  I felt tired, so we took it easy, played downstairs after not hardly touching breakfast.

Before I knew it, sweet Bodhi was laying on the floor on a toy and said "ni ni", closed his eyes, and started to fall asleep.  At 9:30!  Beyond a doubt, I felt what was coming.

I held him and he nursed, and as he fell asleep in my arms, and rested long and deep, while Z and I built a whole city, complete with every superhero you could imagine.  I also made some vegetable soup, so that we could just call it a day!

Then, the sweet baby woke up with a fever.

Sick babies are so so sad.

I nursed him, and we rested, rubbed on some Thieves Oil and Oreganol.  Ate as much as we could, and on and off, we napped, and lazed around.

It always drives a mama a little nuts when her boys don't want to eat, but they know how to listen to their bodies, admittedly, better than me sometimes.

Thankfully, yesterday, we arose with timid smiles, and Daddy was off, so the day was good.

I am grateful that we honor our body's rhythm.

Saturday, November 24, 2012

How Do You Do It?

Picture is courtesy of Z's friend

As a mother of two small children, I am often asked, "How do you do it?  Aren't you tired all the time?"

I love, play with, adventure with, feed, bathe, tend to, problem solve, prevent meltdowns, deal with meltdowns, keep them occupied, encourage, observe, help sleep, help go back to sleep, cuddle, nurse, clean a 2,000 square foot home, find tiny snippets of time for myself to relax, and create, and organize, and a few breaks here and there, and heaven knows what else, for about 14 hours straight each day.

My first instinct is to laugh.

There is no response but, "Yes.  You just do."

It really is as simple as that.

Thursday, November 22, 2012

Thanksgiving Day!

Happy Thanksgiving to you, and your family and friends!

Best.  Dressing.  Ever.
Making a vegetarian version. 

**Order among chaos.
Being organized, so that leaves room to help
and not flip out!!**

**Making tons of dressing, mac and cheese, green bean casseroles, pie and a ham, 
and it doesn't feel so much like work, but just what I do.**

**Neighbors taking family walks.**

**Children playing.**

**LOVELOVELOVE.**

If you are curious about my gratitude journal, here's Day One.


Wednesday, November 21, 2012

Thanksgiving, Day Twenty-One



**You -friends, and family.**

**A husband that loves to spend time at home, and with his family.**

**Two gorgeous boys, that are growing as sweet and kind, as they are beautiful.**

**Our comfortable, beautiful home.**

**Good healthy food for our table, and a growing garden year round.**


If you are curious about my gratitude journal, here's Day One.


Tuesday, November 20, 2012

Thanksgiving, Day Twenty



**Heart-felt smiles, returned from a stranger.**

**Strangers that go out of their way to help you.**

**People that pack groceries right.**

**Being *this close* to finishing that huge to-do list.**

**Making the time to sit on the cushion on a busy day!!!**

If you are curious about my gratitude journal, here's Day One.


Monday, November 19, 2012

Thanksgiving, Day Nineteen


**Babies.**

**Silly boys.**

**My children will eat anything, and love healthy food, and despise most junk food.**

**Daddy is off for a whole week!**

**A freshly mopped floor, by one wonderful husband.**

If you are curious about my gratitude journal, here's Day One.


Sunday, November 18, 2012

Thanksgiving, Day Eighteen


**Birthday love from near and far.**

**Delicious birthday dinner made by Mom.  
Vegetarian lasagna, gorgeous salad and orange chiffon cake.**

**Mysteriously the Apothecary Circle group began on my birthday eve!
This is one of my birthday presents and it officially starts on the New Year!**

**Lovely new Herb Book.**

**Gorgeous Fall Flowers and silly cards.**

If you are curious about my gratitude journal, here's Day One.


Saturday, November 17, 2012

Intentions + Thanksgiving, Day Seventeen



Today is my own personal new year, my 32nd birthday.

I am grateful for my life, my children, family, friends, and all the beautiful, amazing people and creatures that I share this life with in this gorgeous universe.  Every moment, whether up or down, truly is a blessing.

The Universe provides me with quite a beautiful show each year with the Leonid Meteor shower.

Also, for my birthday I signed up for this Apothecary Circle (thanks Mom!), and surprisingly, even though it doesn't start until the New Year, a group was created on my birthday eve, and the invitation sent to dig in already.

I'll also be enjoying a home-cooked veggie lasagna and orange chiffon cake made by Mom tonight, on my beautiful new dishes.

What a lucky girl I am; I couldn't be more elated.

I'm also celebrating by setting my intentions for the year, and reflecting upon the intentions that I set last year.  They were a silent guide, that I checked back in with from time to time.  They were with me every step of the way, and will be the remainder of my life, because they are a part of me, and always have been -I just have to remember them sometimes.

Intentions seep out of my heart, and deep into the marrow of my bones, to chart the course for what lays ahead.  They're remembering what's important, and where I've been and where I am going, as well as where I am right now.

These intentions are purposely open-ended, with space around them, accepting and ready for what comes my way.

Every day is a new day, and we can never have too much love in our heart.


**Honoring every being, space and moment as sacred.**

**Unconditional love.**

**Attention.**

**Breathing.**

**Sensing. **

**Gratitude. **

**Patience.**

**Kindness.**

**Connection.**

**Not rushing, or being too busy.**

**Offering help, and not being afraid to accept it myself.**

**Taking care of what's in front of me.**

**Non-judgemental awareness.**

**There's always time, space and room.**

**Know that no matter where I am or what I am doing, 
that I am right where I'm meant to be, and need to be.**

**Know that this is enough, right here, right now.**

**My life is my practice.**

**I am whole.**




Friday, November 16, 2012

Thanksgiving, Day Sixteen

it's the things that you do over and over,
countless times,
that you sometimes don't want to claim is life.
but it is.
so you do it.
and that's all there is to it.
you can carry on,
less effortlessly,
less mindlessly,
more mindfully,
whatever you want to call it.
but you carry on.
i'm grateful, so grateful, to carry on
another year
another month
another day
another moment
in this life
as it is
right now

Thursday, November 15, 2012

Thanksgiving, Day Fifteen


**Lavender.**

**The peace I feel when I paint and create with the boys.  
Watching them love it as much as I do.**

**Seeing the world through the eyes of my children.**

**Pixie Campbell & my SouLodge sisters.**

**A new little baby girl coming Earthside today.**

If you are curious about my gratitude journal, here's Day One.


Wednesday, November 14, 2012

Thanksgiving, Day Fourteen



**Playdays where every awesome Mama and babe makes it.**

**Surprise delicious lace chocolate toffee cookies.  Thanks, Grandma!**

**Jena Strong, and her perfect, timeless words.**

**Red tailed hawks soaring by.**

**Finding gorgeous striped feathers.**


If you are curious about my gratitude journal, here's Day One.


Tuesday, November 13, 2012

Thanksgiving, Day Thirteen

Me and Mom

**My mother's birthday TODAY.**

**My mother's unconditional love, compassion and caring heart.**

**Being blessed with motherhood myself.**

**Heart flutters.**

**The sweet look Bodhi gets when his eyelids flutter to sleep
as he peacefully nurses and cuddles me.**

If you are curious about my gratitude journal, here's Day One.


Monday, November 12, 2012

Thanksgiving, Day Twelve


The view from the road down the mountain to Mountain View,  Arkansas.

One of the best trips I ever took was in the Summer of 2007
with Grandmother and Mom.  We explored my roots in Arkansas.
I am so grateful that I stayed up every night to record our day trips in my journal.
She was an amazing woman and storyteller, and had a pretty awesome life.
**Mom.**

**Dad.**

**Grandmother.**

**Grandfather.**

**Nana.**

**Papa.**


If you are curious about my gratitude journal, here's Day One.

Sunday, November 11, 2012

Thanksgiving, Day Eleven

We planted our Mexican Milkweed in the Spring,
and awaited these beautiful Monarchs who arrived last month on their way to Mexico.
Just this week the plant is swarming with caterpillars.

**Monarch caterpillars on our Mexican milkweed.**

**Doing nothing, which is often better than something.**

**My boys' uncles.**

**Fall breeze.**

**Karen Maezen Miller.**

If you are curious about my gratitude journal, here's Day One.

Saturday, November 10, 2012

Thanksgiving, Day Ten

Rest in Peace, little buddy
1997-2011
**Remembering our sweet boy, Paco,  
and the fourteen years we shared with him.
Last year seems like yesterday**


**A three day weekend with Daddy home.**

**French Press coffee.**

**Interconnectedness.**

**Gorgeous clouds.**

If you are curious about my gratitude journal, here's Day One.

Friday, November 9, 2012

Thanksgiving, Day Nine


**Sun**

**Moon**  

**Earth**

**Water**

**Trees and plants**

If you are curious about my gratitude journal, here's Day One.

Thursday, November 8, 2012

Thanksgiving, Day Eight




**Going to bed early, and not waking up tired.**


**Hanging with a good friend, and her adorable girl.**

**Gorgeous deer, that stop by to say hello everyday.**

**Our growing garden.**

**When things don't go as I'd like them to or someone does something I don't like,
I can choose to be accepting and forgiving,
instead of expect people to be only as I wish they were.**

If you are curious about my gratitude journal, here's Day One.

Wednesday, November 7, 2012

Thanksgiving, Day Seven


**The American People.**

**The illusion of division.**

**Four more years.**

**Unconditional love.**


If you are curious about my gratitude journal, here's Day One.

Tuesday, November 6, 2012

Thanksgiving, Day Six


**Waking up to a smiling babe, and family cuddles.**

**A new day.  Every day.**

**Playing in mud in November.**

**Giving and receiving smiles.**

**Letting things go.**

If you are curious about my gratitude journal, here's Day One.

Monday, November 5, 2012

Thanksgiving, Day Four & Five

**Special birthday dinners for an amazing husband, and best friend,
at a nice restaurant.  Just the two of us.**

**Surprise ice cream cakes, brought by mom.**

**Having a migraine, asking for help, and not having to worry.**

**Acupuncture.**

**Beautiful flocks of birds, playing in the yard, on a sunny Fall day.**

If you are curious about my gratitude journal, here's Day One.

Saturday, November 3, 2012

Thanksgiving, Day Three


**Beautiful surprises.**

**Grandma brought us breakfast, then we got to go hang out at her house.**

**Dinner with old friends, from out of town, and anticipating their move back to Texas.**

**A quiet peaceful night, with a little time alone.**

**Recognizing anger and frustration, instead of over-acting or acting upon it.  
Or acting upon it, and recognizing the emotions, and suffering, that comes from my own actions.**

If you are curious about my gratitude journal, here's Day One.

Friday, November 2, 2012

Thanksgiving, Day Two


Thanksgiving, Day Two


**Being married to my best friend, who loves me unconditionally,
and supports me no matter what, as I do him.**

**Z is becoming an awesome big brother, and more patient than I ever expected.**

**People that make me think.**

**Knowing without a doubt that we are all deeply connected to one another.
Even when it seems unlikely, we all have a lot more in common than we think.**

**Friends that come and play at the last minute.**

If you are curious about my gratitude journal, here's Day One.

Thursday, November 1, 2012

Thanksgiving, Day One

Everyday is good for giving thanks, but November is such a special month.  Not only do we have Thanksgiving Day to celebrate, we have five major November birthdays, right on the heels of Z's October Birthday.  Grandma, Daddy and Mama all have November birthdays, as well as Uncle Beau and Papaw.

Whew!!!  This is an awesomely busy time of year.

I thought it would be nice to do an online gratitude journal, in addition to my regular old hand written one.  So here it goes...

Day One:



*Still happy about Halloween and trick-or-treating.*

**Honoring our ancestors as we celebrate Dia de los Muertos today.**

**A gorgeous warm and sunny Fall day with clear blue skies.**

**Visit from a Red Tail Hawk.**

**Delicious fettucine alfredo with spinach pasta.**



And by the way, my handwritten was inspired by many of you, but especially Awesomely Awake.