"All at once
The world can overwhelm me
There's almost nothin' you could tell me
That could ease my mind."
Ever feel overwhelmed?
Sometimes when I'm having a bad day I sit to write a list of all that's bothering me. This usually happens after I have been stewing in frustration and pity for a while and I'm sick of it.
Sometimes the list is very long.
It usually turns out that most of the things are not happing right now, right in front of me.
They are not real problems.
The ones that are right in front of me have often been exaggerated by emotion and hype.
Sometimes patience is required.
Sometimes it has to do with other people around me that I have no control over. Then I realize the only thing I can control about that is not to add to the stress or try and just be nice. It doesn't mean I have to ignore it or discount it but just don't feed the fear.
Sometimes with a little reflection or change of perspective the most annoying things can become quite laughable.
If there is something I can do about any of it right then, I do it.
If there is nothing I can do, then all I can do is recognize that.
Then I take account of all that I am grateful for.
That list is usually way longer.
By the time I'm done I feel a lot better.
Then I throw the lists away or could burn it.
Let it go.
And it feels even better.
I look around at my boys and realize they have no idea about my adult fears and problems.
They are living right now.
Why should I ruin our day over something that isn't even happening, something I have no control over?
All of a sudden, the sun comes from behind the clouds and I open my eyes a little wider.
This moment is precious.
This moment matters.
This is what is happening now.
This deserves my attention.
And I give it.